At the time of writing this I am scared beyond tears. Emilio has been doing so good lately that I dare even said it's like he doesn't really even have SPD anymore. Then over the weekend I wanted 2 redo our bedroom and Emilio's bedroom so Mario took the kids to my parents house where he missed nap time by three and a half hours and filled up on gummy bears, suckers and cookies all with artificial flavors colors, and preservatives. For a normal child the effects wouldn't be too bad maybe a little hyper something they would sleep off. With Emilio it's two days later and the effects are devastating It's like he's a totally different child. All his therapists even commented today over and over that they can't believe this is the same child and how bad that food had an effect on him. As of today Emilio's visits over there will be limited to Holidays only and if this happens again it won't even be that nothing is more important then my children s health and safety and I don't care who gets mad about it Emilio's health and safety come first. It's been so long since I've been worried to tears like this about his health, since we moved here in August anyway. Well he did have the Asthma scares but I haven't been so worried about his SPD since then. He's also been waking up in the night lately. On the bright side it looks like NorthStar will be getting Ol' Toodles for us soon. He should be born on or right by Emilio's 3rd birthday. He can't come soon enough. I'm so scared sometimes its like Emilio's in his own world somewhere and doesn't quite reach us. I keep praying his disability will go away, be completely under control We put up pull up bars for him today and picked out a really big indoor trampoline for him for his birthday gift next month. I just am so worried right now. No more short cuts with his food from anyone! I know for sure without a doubt now all that extra time, money and effort we put into his food is unmeasurably worth it and I definitely won't stop getting him as much organic food as I can and chemical free food!
In other news, our family is going to start seriously juicing mid Nov. Mario and I are both very excited about this although at the moment all I can think about is worry for Emilio.
I want my sweet little boy back. Sure at his sweetest he is still the wildest child ever, but at least HE'S HERE with us, at times like this it's like he's absent from himself. So scary!
I just told Mario to leave with Emmett so I can do one-one therapy with Emilio all day tomorrow so hopefully I can get my Emilio back within the next 24hours. This is it I'm not going to lose my boy from chemicals in our food, and missed schedules. In the future I don't care who thinks I'm crazy or mean, or whatever my son is sticking to his schedule and his healthier foods.
