It sad how we can be so kind and nice to others yet we can treat our own families worse then any strangers we come across.  Why is it so hard to be nice to the ones we love sometimes?  Is it that we just forget they have feelings and cares too?   Are we somehow so close to them that we loose where we end and they begin and we just don't consider there feelings?  What exactly is it that drives us to act this way?  All I know is that I really want to be there for my family.  I try, even now for instance, to put my family's feelings first and always consider where they are coming from.   This is harder done then said of course.  Sometimes it's just listening to my Husband and trying to really enjoy something he is excited about.  He loves video games and they've never really been my thing but being that he loves them so much he enjoys telling me about them. ALOT!  I can easily tell him I don't have the time to listen to him go on about them, but I try not to. Because, ultimitly what does interest him, though different from my original interests, have become what I love.  Not because I've come to love video games  but because I have come to love him on all levels and it makes me happy to be apart in something he enjoys so much even if it is just by listening to him talk about it.
As for Emilio and I, I constantly have to remind myself to practice patience.  Emilio has the absolute best personality I  could ever hope my child has.   He's wild, rambunctious, fun, and active.  I would never want to change that about him.   I don't believe a child should sit still all day, and am glad my child is a free thinker.  It isn't always easy being his Mother though.  Quite frankly it's exhausting!!  That's where patience comes in.   I try to remember his energy is a good thing and try not to take that from him.  It would be  easy for me to just put  a show on and make him sit still though it, and I have to admit on my worse days I shamefully have done that.  But I try my hardest not to because I don't want to take that free fun loving spirit from him.  It's my dream that he never looses that, and that no one including myself tries to take that from him.

On another note, I find it so amazing and fun to see Emilio growing into his own person.  For example his love for trains.  None of us "taught" him that he just feel  in love with them on his own.  It's beautiful to watch his individuality and personality coming out.   I love seeing him learn and grow!

Well my due date is in 16days soon Emmett will be here!  Were all so excited and can't wait to meet our new member of our family.  Emilio always pats and lays his head down on my belly.  He already loves Emmett and it's such a beautiful thing.  Our love as a familys multiplying!